update as of january 22, 2007:     a couple days ago i did one in the other ear...so now in one i have three at the bottom (lobe) and in the other i have two at the bottom and one at the top (cart-lig) and i plan on putting two wholes in the top of one and putting a bar thru them, and for my 16 bday which is soon im getting my belly button done. that'll be 10 peircings in all!!!!! *yayz me*

a lil' morbid but sometimes ya gotta say it

throwing u the dirtiest look outta the corner of my eye

squinted, lined in deep black

screaming in my head, fucker die, just die

take it back take it back

having dreams holding a gun to my head

but when its all said and done

your  the one in the puddle of blood, dead

stupid cold, numb ass whole

does it make u feel better

stealing and murdering my soul

all this hate pumping thru my veins

just like the oxygen, thats not reaching my brain

then i faint

oh good, is it over?

hell no. you shake me back to this god damn place

im the biggest mistake

but thats ok,

cuz im what YOU created

these words are not for u to read,

they r not 4 u to understand,

 they r not 4 gaining false sypathy,

or to get a filthy helping hand.

but arent u sick of these lies,

once hidden behind these blue eyes.

 or the false security u gave yourself.

 the things hidden inside your heart.

 is welted of melted metal.

 hate and lies of a boiling kettle.

been broken and bolted back together.

 i prefer to let mine wither.

u acted like u knew it all.

it fucked u over wen u got involved.

dont say i didnt warn you.

so wat im blunt, and u hate it.

so get over it, i wasnt trying to please you.

 its disgusting how u threw a fit,

 how amusing u cant accept wats true.

 a pathetic fake smile.

just annother lie.

 once hidden behind these eyes so blue.

its pointless for any one to try.

 all these things i never knew.

but if u look into the darkness,

 maybe u'd see it too.