Ipokeuwithaspork's Journals

Happy New Years

so my new years sux. didnt do a damn thing. sat at home, watching t.v., lookin back on 2006... and hoping 2007 doesnt go the same way. but still................i smile!

does any one else feel this way

i want to be loved. to be held to have a guy that cares about me. but i feel like i'll never have that. every guy i'ved dated has treated me like shit or cheated on me. i see all the ppl on this site and they seem so happy in true love and ppl care 4 them. wen will i have that?

omg, gr

any one else bored. im bored as fuck. really really. but then again i ran outta my meds so i've been really loopy. (im on anti-depresants) blah. forealz tho. im going god damn stir crazy.

ug bored

guess wat ppls?................. i dyed my hair..........hella black!!!!! i'll add sum pix soon. >-< : P i luvs it. it…

some one plz answer this question

if a picture was "buzzed" wat does that mean?

bored

i just self pierced the cart-lig of my ear. that makes 5 piercings so far. it hurt like a mother fucker. i used a saftey pin. y they call it that. not very safe, duh! so, i've come to find out not all ppl on this site are so nice.

update as of january 22, 2007: a couple days ago i did one in the other ear...so now in one i have three at the bottom (lobe) and in the other i have two at the bottom and one at the top (cart-lig) and i plan on putting two wholes in the top of one and putting a bar thru them, and for my 16 bday which is soon im getting my belly button done. that'll be 10 peircings in all!!!!! *yayz me*

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really cool poems here. if u want to read, plz do. i hope u like them.......

a lil' morbid but sometimes ya gotta say it

throwing u the dirtiest look outta the corner of my eye

squinted, lined in deep black

screaming in my head, fucker die, just die

take it back take it back

having dreams holding a gun to my head

but when its all said and done

your the one in the puddle of blood, dead

stupid cold, numb ass whole

does it make u feel better

stealing and murdering my soul

all this hate pumping thru my veins

just like the oxygen, thats not reaching my brain

then i faint

oh good, is it over?

hell no. you shake me back to this god damn place

im the biggest mistake

but thats ok,

cuz im what YOU created

~~these words are not for u to read,~~

~~they r not 4 u to understand,~~

~~they r not 4 gaining false sypathy,~~

~~or to get a filthy helping hand.~~

~~but arent u sick of these lies,~~

~~once hidden behind these blue eyes.~~

~~or the false security u gave yourself.~~

~~the things hidden inside your heart.~~

~~is welted of melted metal.~~

~~hate and lies of a boiling kettle.~~

~~been broken and bolted back together.~~

~~i prefer to let mine wither.~~

~~u acted like u knew it all.~~

~~it fucked u over wen u got involved.~~

~~dont say i didnt warn you.~~

~~so wat im blunt, and u hate it.~~

~~so get over it, i wasnt trying to please you.~~

~~its disgusting how u threw a fit,~~

~~how amusing u cant accept wats true.~~

~~a pathetic fake smile.~~

~~just annother lie.~~

~~once hidden behind these eyes so blue.~~

~~its pointless for any one to try.~~

~~all these things i never knew.~~

~~but if u look into the darkness,~~

~~maybe u'd see it too.~~

heya people

im new here. so i hope i meet new ppls and ppls be nice. no haters. um.... thats all 4 now. *blows kisses*